we are officially moving to indonesia august 18th. we are leaving halifax august 11th, which is so soon.

i feel like we didnt get settled enough here in halifax, but i really dont think now is the time we would. i dont feel like if we stay another year things will change. I really really want to go across seas and teach and i think now is the time. maybe it would have been different if these past few months were different but they're not. and its time to move on. i will miss alot of people i have met and become fond of, i will be back in nova scotia to live again in a while. we have a year contract with our jobs but definitely wont be back then.

my bestfriend feels so far away right now. so so far away. i just wanna hug her and feel comfortable, completely comfortable with her. i feel comfortable with adam but i want to with her. its just not the same.

i am so bottled up. but therapy is helping but making some things VERY heavy on my shoulders. i still cry pretty much daily but i feel better around people. i feel more outgoing and social, not as awkward. apparently i have found myself having abandonment issues. i have to learn to deal with them and move on.

all and all things are going good, minus a few bits here and there, i really cant wait to see my ontario friends and give them all hugs and cry for days. jo gale is here today and i am not going to wear mascara.