SO.
first off.
i am coming home. october 21st.

I feel really terrible, but also excited. In a way i feel like a failure, not because i originally felt that, just because people are making me feel that way. But i dont really understand it, how can you be a failure when you try different things, isnt it good to try things? I believe that i took a chance, a risk, and it just didnt work out. believe me, i wish it did, its pretty amazing here, but now is not the time. i have had an absolutely amazing cultural experience. it really has been unreal, and will be for the next month. i am not going to sit at home and mope around and be depressed cuz i am not, i feel good, i just feel like i need to be at home. i havent been with my family and friends for over 6 months, and i just really really miss them. would i take it back? probably not. i mean, there are things i could have done differently, but i am not going to look back on it, seeing it as a regret, not in any way what so ever. there were mistakes i made, and i will learn from those.

i just hope nobody sees this as me failing.

on another note.

i am going to penang tomorrow to get our visas extended, and i am SO excited. penang is in malaysia, and we are flying there with a guy from BC named Lindsay(who is super cool). we are there until sunday and i am just so excited to get away for a bit. I am however sick, which totally sucks, but i will try to enjoy my time as much as i can!

also, idul fitri holiday is coming up. the muslims here have been fasting during the day for the whole month of september, and it ends very soon. so we get a week off PAID holiday. I want to go somewhere because i am here and i dont wanna sit at home all week. Lindsay and Stacie are hitch-hiking to Nias, a surfing paradise, apparently. but i think the flight home will be over my budget, (which isnt very much). So, Adam is going to Thailand to go to Phi Phi Island, which is the island that the beach was filmed at, and its pretty close to here, so i think i will head over there with him. it should be exciting, and i think i should be able to snorkel and surf too. its just so cheap over here, you have no idea. the flight is definitely alot, but once you're here you're golden.

the bell is going to ring and school will be over, so this is all for now.

i will see you all soon. oh yeah, i am going to live at home for a while.